Zoom back to Oct 16^, 2022. The previous night I was crying, releasing emotions filled with memories of my parents and childhood in a roomful of complete strangers. This morning , while I shared what I had learned about myself over the last two days, I cried again in front of the room, this time it was around not being the father I wanted to be and how I desperately wanted to improve my relationships with my kids and spend even more time with them.

Let me step back for a second and tell you how I got to that room on October 16.

There had been a sense of uneasiness or something I can’t really explain for some time. It probably intensified in the summer of 2020, and I am certain that covid played a role.

An energy healer acquaintance of mine from a networking group offered me the chance for an energy reading on my business. I had never done anything like this before. I am all about optimizing performance and self-experimentation so, I jumped at the offer.

With virtually no information or history on me, she provided some interesting insights, in regards to my relationships (including my parents) and how I was not speaking my truth enough and guarding myself. It was a very interesting experience.

The next day, I received an email from a friend (a top personal development facilitator) to join a 3-day intensive course for free. I thought this was not coincidence, so I made plans with my family to attend. Less than a week after receiving that email, I was also accepted into a 7-week training course to help coaches develop and foster their Positive Intelligence. 

I saw this as a sign from the universe that I needed to up-level my personal growth.

I don’t know if you have ever done this type of work, and I am not going to get into details, but the 3-day event was intense. We talked about beliefs and behaviors, awareness, payoffs and protections, and personal accountability. We dug into how perception of past events, shapes our relationships in the present.

I realized that I needed to make some changes in my life to get out of the funk I have been feeling and to foster the type of relationships that I want with the people about whom I care most. 

I have been working on those changes for the last few months. As all of you know, habit change is not always easy to implement. I shared my experience with my wife so that she can be a support for me, and I shared with my girls the actions I want to change for them.

Strong relationships are one of the hallmarks of happiness and longevity, and I am committed to this process of further improving my relationships in 2023 and beyond.